Grammy-nominated rapper Chika threatens to commit suicide

Chika, the Grammy-nominated Nigerian-American rapper, has left her fans worried over a disturbing post on her social media page.

In a lengthy Instagram post, the Grammy-nominated rapper detailed her career and life struggles while saying “I am tired of myself.”

The 25-year-old also narrated how she had been held back by challenges on several occasions while chasing her dreams.

The musician, whose real name is Jane Chika Oranika, said she hopes to finally get her “freedom somehow today”.

“I went to the top of the intercontinental, but could not jump. not because I don’t want to, but because the metal stairs were scary,” she wrote.

“It looks like crying wolf, but it’s not. It’s just difficult to find the right way. The quickest way. the painless way. I am tired of myself too.”

Chika said her experiences in life have shown that “I was never meant to win” even though she “inspired many people to achieve greatness.”

“I will find that freedom somehow today I am not sorry to let people down. I refuse to die carrying the burdens of people who could not share my own,” she wrote.

“I refuse to take this pressure to the grave, I refuse to continue to deceive myself into believing things are meant to get better I knew everything in my life betore it happened.

“Ask my mom and dad. They heard me predict my life. I was not wrong and I am still not wrong, I am not speaking things into existence, I am speaking of what already exists. The story. The narrative. The ebbs and flows. The saga.

“I was never meant to win. I was meant to show someone else they can. I do not forgive anyone, and I do not want anyone to forgive me except my best friend Cole & my immediate family. Mom, dad, sisters, that’s it.

“They shouldn’t have to hurt when remembering me. That really fu**ing sucks and I’m a piece of sh*t for that. I know it but my hurting matters to, even if only to me. Thank you to the nice lady in MN who gave me a hug.

“That kindness and selflessness is needed in the world. You’re someone’s angel, you’re going to save someone’s life, just not mine. No more typing. I’m going to finish my drink and find a way that works. Thanks for the ride, I hated it.”

The rapper was signed into Warner Records in 2019. A year later, she was included in XXL‘s 2020 Freshman Class.

Last year, she was nominated for the Best New Artist category of the Grammy Awards.

Chika is the youngest of her Nigerian-American parents’ three daughters.