Eva Alordiah: How I survived deep dark depression

Eva Alordiah, the Nigerian rapper, has revealed how she was able to survive a “deep, dark” depression. 

In a Twitter thread on Tuesday, the 33-year-old recounted how she was lonely all through her journey with depression — despite being famous.

Alordiah said due to the condition, she had to give up her dream of becoming the “greatest female rapper in Africa”.

The entertainer also recounted how the depression became a blessing in disguise, adding that it helped her find peace by accepting herself.

“The depression was the pathway to my awakening. It forced me to give up who I thought I was, to block off everyone else and their dogmas, and to accept a state of nothingness. I found peace when I accepted myself as No thing, No one, No me,” she wrote.

You are an Artist, You are NOT your Art.

Over the years I had become identified with what I did —Eva The Rapper – I didn’t know myself beyond that.

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It has taken years of persistent introspection, meditation & patience to know myself and stand apart from my work.

— Eva – EnergyGiver (@EvaAlordiah) March 1, 2022

“Your purpose in Life has nothing to do with making money & getting fame. I was famous, yet I was dying daily in the loneliness of my privacy.  I found purpose when I learned that my gifts were given me by the Creator to help people. Focus on serving people, all else is bullshit.

The Depression was the pathway to my Awakening.

It forced me to give up who I thought I was, to block off everyone else and their dogmas, and to accept a state of nothingness.

I found peace when I accepted myself as No thing, No one, No me.

//not medical advice

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— Eva – EnergyGiver (@EvaAlordiah) March 1, 2022

“Fame can destroy you if you are not grounded in your Source. Everyone knew who I was, but I looked in the mirror & was lost! I committed myself to KNOWING my Self & God within. I questioned everything & searched in weird places for ancient wisdom.”

Alordiah also used the thread to announce her return to the music industry she left many years ago.

“Yes I am back to recording again! Fortunately, I don’t give a f**k about fame. I am now only making music for people who want it. If that’s you, then I invite you to Join the tribe! You’ll receive my new music in your mail + private podcast!” she wrote.

“Today I find fulfillment in using my words not only to rap & entertain, but to speak, teach, inspire, empower and uplift people. I now spend my time juggling between helping creators make money selling courses on and recording music. It is by Grace.”