Toolz talks trauma of miscarriage: This time last year, I often cried myself to sleep

Weeks after the arrival of her first child, Tolu ‘Toolz’ Oniru has spoken about the pain of suffering a miscarriage.

The on-air-personality, who welcomed her newborn mid-December, said she often cried herself to sleep after losing her first pregnancy.

Following the birth of her son, Toolz says she is excited to be a mother and that she is looking forward to raising her child.

She wrote: “This time last year, I would often cry myself to sleep thinking about the baby we lost, but now I can’t sleep because I can’t stop staring at the most precious gift God has given me this year….MY SON.

“I look at my little prince and I am in complete awe! I still can’t believe I’m a mummy. I can’t wait to teach him everything I know and learn so much from him too.

“I can’t wait to show him how much every inch of me loves him. I also can’t wait to “Patience Ozokwor” his future girlfriends.

Toolz said the “biggest lesson” she learned in 2018 is to never give up on God.

She wrote: “Since last year, we prayed, fasted and prayed some more for God to bless us with a healthy baby in 2018. Towards the end of the first quarter, I started to think that our prayers wouldn’t be answered in 2018. I stupidly got impatient and frustrated with God.

“One day in April, Captain came home and found me in bed crying my eyes out because I thought we wouldn’t have a child in 2018. Little did I know that as I was crying and getting upset and frustrated with God, I was actually already pregnant.

“While I was being weak and doubting Him, He had already answered our prayers!

“For our family, friends and every single one of you that remembered us in prayer….Thank you so very much. May God overwhelm you with incredible blessings this coming year.

“For women dealing with the loss of a child like I did last year, know that the story doesn’t end there. God has already completed your testimony, and I pray that you (just like me) will be celebrating sooner rather than later.

“For anyone waiting on God to answer their prayers, please remember that God’s delay isn’t His denial.”

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'For this child I have prayed and You heard my cry. For this baby I had faith and You gave new life'… This time last year, I posted my most vulnerable and honest post to date after my miscarriage. WHAT A DIFFERENCE A YEAR MAKES!! This time last year, I would often cry myself to sleep thinking about the baby we lost, but now I can't sleep because I can't stop staring at the most precious gift God has given me this year….MY SON.❤❤❤ I look at my little prince and I am in complete awe! I still can't believe I'm a mummy. I can't wait to teach him everything I know and learn so much from him too. I can't wait to show him how much every inch of me loves him. I also can't wait to "Patience Ozokwor" his future girlfriends 😁😁 The biggest lesson I learnt this year is to NEVER…EVER GIVE UP ON GOD. Since last year, we prayed, fasted and prayed some more for God to bless us with a healthy baby in 2018. Towards the end of the first quarter, I started to think that our prayers wouldn't be answered in 2018. I stupidly got impatient and frustrated with God. One day in April, Captain came home and found me in bed crying my eyes out because I thought we wouldn't have a baby in 2018. Little did I know that as I was crying and getting upset and frustrated with God, I was actually already pregnant. While I was being weak and doubting Him, He had already answered our prayers! For our family, friends and every single one of you that remembered us in prayer….Thank you so very much. May God overwhelm you with incredible blessings this coming year. For women dealing with the loss of a child like I did last year, know that the story doesn't end there. God has already completed your testimony, and I pray that you (just like me) will be celebrating sooner rather than later. For anyone waiting on God to answer their prayers, please remember that God's delay isn't His denial. Thank you Heavenly Father for always showing that you've got me! Lots of love and Happy Amazing 2019 from Toolz, Captain and Chairman 👶🏾 #GodsGotMe #TreeOfUs #Testimony #We2019Ready

A post shared by Toolz Oniru-Demuren (@toolzo) on Dec 31, 2018 at 8:51am PST

Meanwhile, her husband, Tunde Demuren, disclosed that Toolz took time off work and her business to make sure the pregnancy was in good condition.

Demuren said she “left her career, left her business, left her home to make sure the child was good”.